Does anyone ever feel like they’ve taken on too much? This week I have had those feelings. Don’t get me wrong I am more organised and prepared for things than I have ever been but this week it has all got on top of me.
It’s so natural to want to compare myself to others and feel left behind but I have to constantly remind myself I am not them, I am my own person with my own ideas, I am also a mum of two beautiful girls and work a part time job, a job which is currently super hectic.
Many of my competitors /creative peers run their businesses full time and don’t have children or if they do they are older and time is more flexible. I am not saying their lives are easy by any means but circumstances are different so I cannot compare, I must not compare! (I must NOT compare!)
This week I have been very low. My brain has said one thing (strong positive thoughts) but my body and emotions have said another. I am feeling exhausted. My girls have been testing and the house has felt tense. No one thing has been a trigger but it’s been hard to shift that mood. I want so much for each element and love in my life but sometimes somethings got to give and that thing this time is my business.
If I take anything from these feelings it is that life is short, it's to be lived and appreciated and often I can lose track of this.
As we move closer to the weekend and I plan some exciting activities I slowly feel these feelings shifting. I have a super awesome crochet baby shower to host tomorrow for my bestie who is due her third little bundle of joy in just a few short weeks. Hubby and I are also having a massive sort out of stuff to charity shop or sell… and there’s a lot. I do love a good clear out and am so excited to get stuck in. A clear house means a clear mind, just the tonic I think! I know this might seem strange but I’m sure I’m not the only one with an addiction to organisation! It's going to make me feel so happy to tick this off the to do list.
So, the to do list! If you have to have one thing on your to do list it is to have a to do list. I cannot function properly unless I have all of my thoughts scribbled down in my notebook, this applies to all aspects of life. I have a jobs list for home, an action plan list for my creative biz and I even have a list with lists I need to create.
I've not ticked much off my to do list for a few days but its not for want of trying. I keep finding more things to fill my time and the list keeps getting bigger. This blog post for instance wasn't on the to do list but I just had to share my words with you. Not sure if any of this is of any interest to anyone but for those that have taken the time to read my ramblings I thank you. Its amazing how my woes are lifting after just a few words. Here's to a productive and motivational weekend.
Happy Friday folks!
Hi, I'm April.
Crochet designer and tutor based in Nottingham.